By Jamie Lee Andrews
OK Well... For the past few weeks there has been MAJOR drama here in Reality for me, my grandfather did turn up last week, but on Saturday he tried to commit suicide after my grandmother was making him face the music and show him what he's done and what we've found out about him whilst he was gone.
During Saturday morning, my grandmother was asking him about all this pornography that he had been watching and asking how old the people in the video were, in the end she asked me to bring the laptop downstairs for my grandfather to find the porn video that he had been watching to show her, but that wasn't on his mind at this point, he couldn't face up to the music or admit that he HAD been watching Child Pornography so he went into the Kitchen, popping out his Anti-Depressants with a glass of water beside him, I was watching, just thinking he was taking his daily dose, but then my Nan came in and was screaming at him, ran over to him slapped the glass into the sink where it smashed, she was pulling him about trying to stop him from putting the meds in his mouth, but he kept pushing her away and put the meds in his mouth and swallowed, she was screaming "WHAT HAVE YOU TAKEN!!!" pulling on his shirt almost strangling him, at that point I just ran to the phone, dialed 999 and screamed down the phone "MY GRANDFATHER IS COMMITTING SUICIDE" and the person on the other said 'Calm down! What service do you need?' So I just said Police and when I got through I was screaming down the phone, they told me to calm down and talk quietly so in the end I sad "My grandfather has just attempted to commit suicide by overdosing on some pills, we don't know what he's taken" and then they asked for the address and asked to speak to my grandmother, so I gave them all that and gave the phone to her, and then I just completely lost it, I kicked down the gate around the stairs, started jumping on it, ran up the stairs and started smashing my room to pieces, I even smashed a great big chunk out of my wardrobe door with a metal pole, my Nan was screaming up at me "JAMIE CALM DOWN" and all that, so I did and just grabbed the house keys, ran out the house up the road out into the main road (not actually ON the main road) waiting for the police car, I saw it but it went the wrong way so I just started jumping up and down waving my arms about screaming at the top of my lungs, I'm sure people passing thought I was some kind of psychopath, I had nothing on my feet, torn jeans and being a maniac. Eventually the car came past and I was running like fuck beside it (actually keeping up with it) wearing myself out running back into Littlecroft and to my house, I just flopped at the stop of the stairs, was seriously exhausted after all the running, and a few minutes later the police told me to go outside and direct the Paramedic's car to the house, so I did, and then sat down again, one of the police officers were telling us to calm down and was being very helpful with all that she did after, then we heard the ambulance, and I had to run back out there again and direct that here too, they got here and then I was just sitting on the stairs, totally out of it, then my mother turned up at the door and her face just turned white when she saw my grandfather laying on the floor, not knowing if he was dead or not, so the paramedics and ambulance people got him onto a trolley to take to the Ambulance, and my mother & grandmother went with him on the Ambulance to the hospital whilst my Step-Dad (Rob) stayed behind to keep me company along with several police officers to make sure I didn't do anything stupid because of my history of doing stuff after a traumatic experience, but things were fine after that, I had to phone my uncle and tell him that "Granddad as tried to commit suicide and was just a few minutes ago escorted to Broomfield Hospital" and he said 'OK' and went there immediately, but then things calmed down, I got a phone call from my mother saying that he was OK and wasn't going to die because there wasn't enough toxin in the Anti-D's to actually kill him, unless he took hundreds of them.
So the rest of Saturday was alright, my step-dad ran over to the shops to get some food and get me a McDonald's since I hadn't eaten anything for a few days, but yeah, Saturday was totally messed up.
When my Mum & Nan came home it was like quarter to eleven at night, so my mum and step-dad went back to their home to get some sleep as my Nan went to get some sleep too.
And believe it or not the Hospital discharged him to come back home, although there are going to be two people and a psychiatrist coming round every day to talk to them and all of that stuff, the psychiatrist wants to speak to BOTH of them because all the stress that my grandfather has put on her is going to make her ill and stuff so he wants to speak to her too, but I personally think he (my grandfather) needs to stay in Hospital and be put in a mental ward.
But since he's here, my Nan & I were cleaning out the medicine cabinet and throwing away anything that had aspirin in it or could kill you, the rest of the stuff (like Paracetamol) we put in a safe which only my Nan would know the combination too, along with the meds we put his House keys, his Van keys and all his credit cards and all that stuff in to the safe too, in-case he tried to run away again and buy some medicine to try kill himself with again.
So yes... Very eventful few weeks, been really stressful... But hopefully things will get better now. But my Nan did say, if he starts talking suicidal or anything like that she's getting him put back into the Hospital because she doesn't want his death on her consonance etc.
22nd October 2008.
Today is the day I finally after about 9 years stand up and leave the internet & go outside to get some Sunlight, some Exercise, some Fun which isn’t generated by a computer system.
Even though it’ll be hard as hell to put myself up to going outside and mixing with people, it’s time I grew up and stopped being a silly little child sitting in the corner of my bedroom all day long 24/7.
I may just be stalling on going Offline writing this note, but I just want to let people know the reasons why I’m leaving.
The first reason being that I received a letter the other day from my local Doctors surgery saying that my Central Nervous System has been damaged by my eyes hurting from staring at the computer screen, and that it’ll continue to go on unless I stop staring at the computer screen and get some Vitamins into me.
This is a whole change of life for me, one that I think is good, but at the same time a bad one, because of my life being computers.
But if I don’t balance reality & virtual-reality, I’ll end up getting even more sick than I am at the moment, as the letter explained; I could end up going into Hospital and being fed by tubes -- I don’t want that at all, I want to be healthy and grow up to see how much fun life is, from what friends have told me.
Even though I don’t WANT to, it appears I HAVE to in-order for me to get healthy.
I love the computer & internet more than anyone could ever imagine, here I am free to do what I want, I can say what I like, I can finally make a name for myself, but unfortunately, health doesn’t exist on computers, it exists outside where all the vitamins are.
Ever since I was like 3 I have had a problem with eating, and I had to get a nutritionist to come in and try to sort me out when I was about 6 until I was 10, they ended up giving up with me because I just refuses everything and never took any of their advice. After that I was given drinks to have, prescribed only ones; Ensure Plus -- So delicious & healthy at the same time, but doctors said it wasn’t enough and I couldn’t only just live on health drinks, so they banned me from getting them.
I have tried, believe me, I have tried to eat, even my primary School teachers tried to get me to eat when they weren’t teaching (In breaks & at the end of School), but it was just too much for me and I couldn’t bring myself to eat anything.
To be honest, I was much healthier when I was younger and when I was going to School, because I actually went outside and played with my best friends in the playgrounds at School -- However, since then I’ve only grown worse because of the amount of vitamins I’ve not taken.
So now it’s finally the time for me to go and fix myself up and get some of that sun, probably even start going out to the beach again. Heck, maybe I’ll even get a fun job in the daytime and make some money and meet new people at the same time.
The only thing is, most jobs require Education thingies, but I left School when I was 11, became Home Educated where I was taught all I needed to know by my computer, but that’s not enough for job recruiters, they want test results and stuff…
So maybe I might go to College, even though I’m too scared to do so… But, we will see…
This notice ends here:
Jamie Lee Andrews -- Finally Leaving the Internet, Fin.
By Jamie Lee Andrews
Again, I am sorry for not updating my blog much lately; I have been going through a lot lately with my angel Tari in hospital, she was referred to the hospital earlier this month as she fell into a coma after attempting suicide by overdosing on sleeping pills and anti-depressants. Here's the full story...
Tari:
The 13th of September was the worst day ever this year, as the one who I love more than anyone else in this world was sent into hospital, after falling into a coma in affect of overdosing on sleeping pills & anti-depressants, she said that she could no cope with everything right now, with me, with work, with all the stuff that was clouding up her vision... And it's very easy to see why she wanted to overdose, because she wanted to be free from all the frustration and stress from it all... She is still in hospital right this very moment, still unable to speak or open her eyes, but her body patterns were said to be slowly getting back to how they should be. The doctors had said that the sleeping pills she overdosed on are still in affect and will take a while to wear off. But in the long-run she will be fine physically...
The day before Tari did an overdose she said she was thinking about something very long & hard on, but she wouldn't explain what she was thinking on to me or my sister Rosanne, but we can only guess that what happened on the 13th was a result of the day before...
Tari has never done anything such as this in her life, she's never thought about suicide, and I've never seen her depressed before, until earlier this year when things started to screw up...
She was feeling all sorts of emotions, as was I, as there were a lot of complications involving various things, that appeared to of revolved around me... Which kind of made me really upset and sad, because I want her to be happy, not upset or in-pain.
And this whole expierance of her being in hospital has changed me a lot, because I don't want to loose her, I've known her since I was born (as our parents were the best of friends in their childhood)...
I visit Tari in the hospital everyday for as long as I possibly can, and when I am there I keep saying things to her, things that I've always wanted to tell her but couldn't put them into words.
A large majority of people who know myself & Tari know how much I love her and that I want to never loose her, as she does for me ... But things have been getting in the way of the both of us, making it really hard for the two of us to get through things... It's a constant battle of emotions to live lately it seems, everything is just going over the top and unable to get through.
Just reccently the two oldest people in my family passed away (Great-Grandad Fred & Great-Grandad Dennis) and I'm not letting Tari be the next to go in such a short time... When I say this, and I speak the truth; I love Tari with all that I am, all my heart, all my soul, if she were ever to vanish from my life, I would not hesitate to pick up a knife and slit my throat and lay in a pile of blood, thinking to myself how much life meant to me when Tari was with me. -- I know it's a bit over the top & very emo of me, but that's how I feel, Tari means the whole meaning of existance to me, she's always been there, through all the hard times, through all the good times. I am not ready to loose her, infact, I'll NEVER be ready to loose her, because I want to live a happy life with her, as long as we're together I will be over the moon with joy.
After Tari is out of Hospital, I'm going to do something very special for her, I'm going to use all the money I've saved (even though very little) over the years and make her dreams of going to Paris & Japan come true -- She loves Paris & Japan, and says it would be a dream come true if she could visit those places... So I want to do that to show her that I'm willing to do anything to make her happy, and that I don't want to see her in these conditions... I love her so damn much that it kills me to see her like this... And now I know how she feels when I'm in these kind of states, and I am going to change that by getting help and getting my body fixed and put back into working order how it should be... Because the neither of us are ready to split apart, we've lived through hell together, and now we want to live through heaven together, and enjoy all that life has to offer...
I Love Tari so damn much!! -- I hope that she will get better soon.. I love her, and want to make her see how much I love her.
Thanks for Reading... I'm sorry if it was too much, it's just what I wanted to get out of my system...
xx Jamie~
By Jamie Lee Andrews
Well, it has been a while since I last updated my blog, as I have been busy a lot with numerous things, anyway, this post should explain nearly everything, I hope.
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Part 1: Land Screw-ups
Since my Last post I've been busy with my friends on Sim & Estate projects inside SL, of which didn't go as planned; General Yiyuan was informed by Winkler Burt about 1/2 a sim for sale at L$10,000 (16,000 sq.m at L$5000 each).
So, when General told me about this I was instantly on location and in awe at the price, and I bought the first 16,000 sq.m, as we were worried someone else might come and buy it right in front of us, then we waited for General's friend Gord to login to buy the other half, and when he did buy the other half we linked both of the parcels together.
All was well until the tier came, but we worked through that as Ike (TheEvil Chemistry) was able to pay that tier, though, with help of my SL-Wife, and we were OK after that.
HOWEVER, some things went wrong as the Estate took advantage of their management over the simulation, technically it was against the TOS what they had done.
They changed the covenant without warning us, and so from there they basically scammed & screwed us over, before they edited the covenant it was in full English and also allowed Subdividing, Joining & Selling land inside the sim.
And as we were struggling to pay full tier for them, we attempted to sell the parcels instead, 512 sq.m bit by bit.
And when we had finished that we decided to log out and go to bed.
The next day, we had found all our land was gone, and they reclaimed ownership. They claimed that they had not changed the covenant, when they clearly had.
But this had really pissed us off because they were being really bitchy towards us. Even the land my friend Julian bought was taken (he had no part of the projects we were doing), which was also messed up as they didn't warn anybody about it.
Anyway, we got over that over a few days, we reported them and such, but that's as far as we went. After we decided not to buy any land and only keep land that was necessary, such as my little plot in Saint Clair (Which is my store).
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Part 2: Hospital (Warning: Many people may not want to know this, if you are one of these people, then skip this part)
After all the crap that happened with all the land stuff, some other problems came up; I had to be transferred to Hospital for an operation to be done -- I was bleeding irregularly, at first I thought that it was my period, but I didn't stop bleeding on & off for a few days so I decided to get it checked out, I had a doctor look around and do some tests, and they were not sure what the problem was, so I went to the hospital to get it checked and they confirmed that there was a tear inside of my vagina, and that they would need to operate on me by stitching it up and cleaning it out to stop any infections, they also wanted to do some more to me, but I wasn't really paying attention to the details.
Anyway, I went to the Hospital on Sunday the 10th of August and my operation was over within 4 hours, my sister Tari kept my friends updated on what was happening. I myself wasn't really worried about the operation as much as I thought I would be, the surgeons were really calm and kind and kept me relaxed, but after the operation I was worried about staying in the Hospital as I am really paranoid and scared of being left alone in a public place, but I was OK for the first night as Tari stayed with me, she put together two chairs and used them as a place to sleep next to me, but the second night I only had my laptop to keep me company as Tari had to go home to get some rest as she had to do some important things the next day, I was really scared going to sleep because I kept thinking about many things that could happen, but after a while I was able to sleep as Disco stayed with me throughout the night, so I was sort of calm, but still worried. I demanded to go home the day before hand, regardless of what the hospital wanted, and I explained to the hospital why I wanted to go home, and they decided that it would be a good idea for me to get better faster, as stress/worry seems to slow down your bodies healing system or something, so they phoned up Tari and she came and took me home as soon as I woke up, which was in the afternoon, and Tari stayed there till I woke up so I felt safe again. Before we headed off the doctors wanted to do several last tests on me, which didn't take very long, about 10 - 20 minutes, then the doctors told me to rest as soon as I got home and not to do anything too active, which is very easy for me, as the only things that seem to do anything active now-a-days are my hands and my brain (And of-course all that internal anatomy crap *Shudder*).
Anyway, I'm all better now, it stings a lot whenever I need to go to the bathroom, but they had said that would happen over the next few weeks. But all is good, I found it kind of exciting to be honest, although frightening.
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The rest of the stuff that happened throughout the period since my last post were all random and I can't really put any of it to words.
However, that's near enough all the important(?) stuff that had happened since!
Thanks for Reading.
By Jamie Lee Andrews
I am fairly sure that I am not the only person that has dealt someone like the person I encountered a few days ago, because there are many other people such as this one in the world ... Anyway, you will understand what I mean after reading this.
The other day I came across a middle-aged woman from the United States, and I was minding my own business talking to my friends as she was minding her business talking to hers, until randomly she walked up to me and accused me of not typing the English-language correctly... Here's the exact quote from her, that she said in voice chat; "Excuse me, Jayvell, here in America we do not type or speak the way you do, I really think that you need to learn how to speak English before speaking this language, the way you are talking is wrong" In one of those weird American accents.
I am in-fact a full-born & grown citizen of England, of which is where the English language originated (Hence the ENG in English). And I told her that, and she kept trying to be smart-ass by trying to make me believe that the way Americans talk is the way everyone who uses the English language should talk like, at that point I got really pissed off with her and started being such an ass towards her with abusive comments about the way Americans have ruined the great English grammar, making it seem like a Language that idiots would use -- Don't get me wrong, I know there is a lot of idiots in our community, but the way she made it sound made me think America were the true problem with our language.
After a while of me bitching off at her she went silent and stop talking to her friends, I am not sure if she was in a Private-chat or an IM or what, but I know I had got her either really pissed off with me, or made her feel like a complete idiot.
Anyway, after a few minutes of silence she said to me and I quote; "You do not know anything of the American-English language, the language you people use in England is messed up anyway!"
That's when I got REALLY pissed off and continued bitching at her about how England was where their language was formed from, because seriously, if the Americans made the language, why didn't they just call it the American Language, Because they didn't create it, they only made the ENGLISH language adapt to their country, and they're accusing us citizens of England of using the English language wrong??? That's just seriously BULLSHIT.
America has ruined everything about the grammar used in the English language, making up words that actually don't even make sense of any sort.
And what made me hate this woman even more is that she has a personal grudge against anybody that isn't white, or who does not come from the US of A(ssholes), so not only is she a dumb-fuck, but she is racist! What more is there to hate about her? The fact she hasn't got a job, spends all her life on the Internet, eating her way through Big Macs constantly (No I am not lying, her Profile picture was of a fat-lady with a McDonalds bag next to her, and for the records: I DON'T Have anything against obese people, they're still people no matter what size).
Anyway, I just had enough of the shit she had been saying so I ended up booting her across the sim I was in at the time with my personal Sephibox (Badass Physical/Scripted box) after saying "If you're so smart and know everything about the English language, go read the English Dictionary for Dummies and see if you are in-fact correct".
Now, do you understand what I meant?
By Jamie Lee Andrews
Well... When I say new adventure, it isn't really new to me, just a different view on it.
Anyway; this adventure begins with my knowlege and expirience of building & scripting with SL & .LSL services, as you should already know I own and maintain a shop of which I monitor daily, although sales are not doing quite as well as I thought, things are going nicely, the shop itself is completed, in terms of interior & exterior design, all the items that I have FINISHED are already on sale, and many more to come, even those made by my dear friends from the old Aeazen Combine group, now known as the International Sixfold Union (ISU).
I myself have been with the ISU/AC since the begining, and have never abandon them since, and not likely to in the future, as they understand the truth of building/scripting/sculpting and what not, anyway, the ISU is a very intellegent and utter-most epic Organization of which I am glad to be a part of, as we are always doing something, whether we are planning things to make, building some new gadget that we think will be a best selling item, or if we're just lounging around having a laugh while planning our future City-scape sim.
The International Sixfold Union was founded and is currently led by General Yiyuan (In-world name), he is the brains behind everything that happens, and an awesome builder himself. The ideas he comes up with are brilliant and mind-bending!
Another member of the ISU who is also a long-term member, an awesome builder & scripter is Prometheus Dogval, he builds more than he talks, which is nessacarily a good thing as it always keeps us interested and inspired.
I myself am a slow & more laid back builder, although I get builds done very quickly, I don't build one thing after another, I can only build when inspired. Though, I should be building like crazy during the remaining of the Summer, which will mean more builds to sell, more money to put in the pot.
Speaking of builds, the other night I spent a good few hours on drawing a design for a new project I've been meaning to do... And then spent another few hours building that project - The project in question is still being made and has not been named, and has only been seen by a few. I'm keeping the actual brilliance of the project kept stored in my head so that I can release the sheer epicness of it in the future.
It isn't completed, though it is a completely different project compared to my previous projects and designs, I myself am suprised about how this came around to enter my thoughts, I guess the years I've been with SL I've finally hit a Epic-Build Idea, like those that many others have done.
Anyway, I wanted to inform people of a new design of a cannon that I have developed, it is in a very original Villota-Faction form, but more darker and more of a violent look to it, I will get round to scripting it some day, that I'm making sure of, however, the prim-scale of it isn't funny, already it hits the 1,000 Prim point, the finished version will be much bigger. though once complete I will start building a tower that I've already made a base design of on paper.
The tower will be used as Villota-Faction Headquarters, which will also be shared by the International Sixfold Union (If they want to).
Well, that is all I wanted to write for now, I will keep this page updated with the development and designs of the projects that we are developing of late, I may add some scans of the drawings I did of the future Villota-Faction HQ tower sometime. But for now, I bid you a good day.
By Jamie Lee Andrews
It has been a few months since I owned a store - - Last store I owned was 'RaNDoM' which was at Covenant, however I had lost the ownership of the land where that store was because of all the account problems I had back then, I was forced to abandon all the land I owned since I wasn't able to pay Linden Lab the money I owed them for the peak-usage, however a few weeks ago I was able to get my account re-activated and get a new payment file.
Before; I used to pay Linden Lab by using PayPal, but my PayPal account had been bugged and wasn't working properly, so I had to delete that from my account and add up my Credit Card - Yes I know it's not always safe putting a credit card on anything Online, but SL is most trustworthy.
Anyway, a few days ago I upgraded back to premium and bought a new plot of land, next door to the one I love! - - The store I own now is located in Saint Clair. (SLURL Will be provided at the end of this post).
The land I bought is being used as both a Store and a Studio.
Now, the store isn't completed and only holds a few items right now, but soon I will make more items for the vendors to sell. However, it will take around a few months to complete the whole thing.
The Studio however is a place where people can relax & chill out listening to music or watching media on the TV - - However the studio is off-limits of late and is being used as a private sky-box, anyway, when the studio is completed you may be able to access it via-teleport devices I will put down in the store on the ground.
My store will be selling various things when completed, mainly Neko items (When I get round to those), Weapons, Airships, Gestures, Clothing and other avatar accessories & full-avatars.
I hope to have more than the current three items I have up right now by the end of the month... If I don't make anything else and put them in the shop by August I'm going to get really ticked off at myself and probably start harming myself.
Anyway I hope to see you guys come round to my Store one day...
Jamie's Store SLURL: http://slurl.com/secondlife/Saint%20Clair/231/183/50Jamie's Studio SLURL: Coming Soon
By Jamie Lee Andrews
Hello and Welcome to my Public Second Life Blog... If you have read the 'About Me' section then you would know by now I am an Old-Time member of SL.
Although I have left so many times that I have lost count, such as just recent I had lost my account to Linden Labs by being Canceled due to an over-due of one of my payments, but after a while I was able to pay them the money I owed, and now I am back and able to amaze my friends with my new building projects! Hehe...
Anyway, I was really sleepy when I was writing everything in my Blog, so I'll end tonight's postings for now and continue them later on.
Thank You for taking an interest in my Second Life... Feel free to message me in game at any time, I'll reply to all messages (as long as they're not immature or upsetting messages). Enjoy your lives, but don't forget you still have a life in reality.
